This morning we were supposed to have an occupational therapy evaluation at Easter Seals to finally get the OT started again. If we need to at all, for that matter. I really don't feel that Lara needs any OT, but I am not a therapist, so I just go with what they tell me. However, in the midst of breakfast, Easter Seals called to say that our OT hadn't got back yet from vacation, so we need to push the session back a couple days. It's unfortunate, but this is really quite common-therapists cancelling at the last minute (not meaning that they do it all the time, just that it's such a natural and accepted thing to do). However, we were able to run some errands and this afternoon, we went to State Farm pool to get some relief from the unbearably hot and humid day. As I type this, I am trying to upload a video, but Blogger won't allow me. Which means I'll have to make it public on another video site then embed it. Oh, well. It's all there at the bottom.

Lara tried out a walker at PT on Friday. It was a really different way of walking, so it was hard for her. The PT hasn't said anything about Lara using one on a regular basis-again, we really want to focus on getting Lara to walk without help; a walker just seems too...permanent.

I am so blessed to be apart of an awesome church. We are a very "come as you are" church, and this gives you a wonderful chance to experience life at its fullest. You see the highs and deep lows of other's lives, and it's eye-opening and sometimes gut-wrenching. But it always inspires you-it helps you figure things out. I was inspired this past Sunday by a testimony that was given by an older woman who dealt with her daughter having brain surgery, followed by spinal meningitis. She talked about handing the control over to God in this situation...

I began to realize that I have never handed control over to God with Lara's CP. I pray for Lara regularly. I have learned lessons of love and patience through this experience. But I have always been in charge; I have always made the decisions; I have always felt that if I just do these things, and purchase this equipment, Lara will be fine. If I take Lara to therapy, and get Lara her braces, and do her exercises, she'll be fine. I am racked with guilt if I don't do any of these things when I should. I feel that the littlest thing could make me look back years from now with regret, or questions. Am I doing the right thing? I am not a control freak; I don't need things to go my way, but I do need to know which way they are going. I am "systematic," as a friend once called me. And while there is NOTHING wrong with this because this is the way God wired me, it's one of those things that I need to figure out how to use the right way.


Well, you see where this is going. Lara is truly God's daughter and her care is completely in His hands. I can't know the way she is going to turn out, physically or emotionally. And there's more of a question there for me than the "normal" parent. I need to allow God to take care of Lara and have a peace about the work we have to do for her. It's a lesson for all of us in some area of our lives. The right thing will happen if I just take the time to listen.











And the finale...